Where are you my dear?...

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........................where in your mind did you go?

Can I reach you?.......................
..............//|\\ are you alone?
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its only in yourself you'll find the
TRUE answers....
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there's just something about this song...
The Unforgiven

New blood joins this earth
and quikly he's subdued
through constant pain disgrace
the young boy learns their rules

with time the child draws in
this whipping boy done wrong
deprived of all his thoughts
the young man struggles on and on he's known
a vow unto his own
that never from this day
his will they'll take away

what I've felt
what I've known
never shined through in what I've shown
never be
never see
won't see what might have been

what I've felt
what I've known
never shined through in what I've shown
never free
never me
so I dub thee unforgiven

they dedicate their lives
to running all of his
he tries to please them all
this bitter man he is
throughout his life the same
he's battled constantly
this fight he cannot win
a tired man they see no longer cares
the old man then prepares
to die regretfully
that old man here is me

what I've felt
what I've known
never shined through in what I've shown
never be
never see
won't see what might have been

what I've felt
what I've known
never shined through in what I've shown
never free
never me
so I dub thee unforgiven

you labeled me
I'll label you
so I dub thee unforgiven

So I'm writting this to whoever still reads this webpage.

Latest News: I'm writing this fantastical, philosophical, autobiographical book, which I've been working on day and night, but it'll probably take some time to write it & publish it. On top of that, I'm working on some music "projects"- in guitar + diff. music programs. Just trying to mix some stuff; let my feelings out. I'm also back to drawing. Prob. also doing some sort of media like film or whatnot. I've become very involved with school as u can see.

I guess I've had such strong feelings about so many things lately. I feel like my chest is going to explode. I dont know how to keep it all in me.

I bought my folks two tickets so they can go watch Luciano Pavarotti, since its his retirement tour and they've always enjoyed his music, I got them as an anniversary/ b-day present. It's made me feel really good. Out of all my confusions that's the only thing that's made sense in these past days, although it was kind of expensive, it has left me feeling great.

I guess I'm determined in certain things in my life. But the rest of me is just a world of emotions. My own little labyrinth. I get lost in it sometimes. My intuition is all I have. It acts against my eyes, whatever I think I'm observing never seems to be there. Funny isn't it?...

What road should I take?... I guess the statue of my life will eventually take the shape I give it, with that polish dust we make out of experience.

You know what kills me? I give it my all in all I do yet I always feel a big emptyness inside. Hopes of something I guess slipped away, like everything in life slips away...into memories...into labyrinths...